I have tried everything -but STILL feel sick!

I am a CRAZY sick person.
I can't just relax and sleep.
Immediately I start cleaning walls,
and start organizing files
on the computer that for some reason HAVE
to get done right then and there.
Deep cleaning behind the toilets.
Proving I guess that I won't go down till I say I'll go down-
Who am I battling with by the way????
I want to be able to lounge around and
take naps WHEN I WANT not because I have to!!!!
(hum-Sounds like a control thing)
I might think about that as I lay in bed.